Finding My Voice

On self-censorship, restriction, and finally claiming the words that belong to me.

Sometimes I amaze myself with my effortless wit, while other times I have to prove my power. The untouched canvas of my brain is actually a vacuum full of all the words I want to say, but am frightened to.

It sounds soft, maybe even weak. But that’s the truth of it, my silence is often mistaken for poise when it’s really reluctance disguised as control. I wonder how many moments I’ve let pass because I put away my voice instead of spilling it.

I don’t want to keep treating my thoughts like contraband, buried until someone else uncovers them. My voice shouldn’t feel like a performance or a test I can fail. It should be an extension of me, as natural as my laugh or the way I move when I am excited.

So maybe this is me unlearning perfection, one sentence at a time. My voice doesn’t need to be shiny to be powerful.

It just needs to be mine.